I am guilty

I am tired of musical theater.

I am tired of hearing my roommates sing theater songs.

I am tired of hearing youtube videos of musical theater songs blasting from the living room.

I am tired of hearing the people talk about type and audition material.

I am tired of hearing them judge their peers and friends so harshly.

I am tired of seeing the same kind of songs and the same movements and the same things from people performing.

I am tired of hearing people belt.

I am tired of being judged by everyone in a career choice that will have no impact curing world hunger or homelessness or any of the world's problems.

I am tired of musical theater and its cliches.

I am in a weird mood.

It's only a week into the semester and my career choice is already burning a hole in my enthusiasm. I am a terrible person and should be killed instantly.

I could mull on this longer, but I've got 2.5 songs to learn.

Mostly, I am just tired.

Please don't be too hard on me.

But I'm just tired of being a part of a field that will not care whatsoever whether or not I contribute or not.

As I write this, my roommate is on the phone talking to someone about her belt and how she used it on a song. And I am so happy for her. She's megafuckin super talented. I envy people who have no doubts, who never tire of discussing vocal arrangements and character choices. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Is it just that I don't have the right temperament for anything?

No, I'm not making any rash decisions, and changing my major. I love the collaborative art that is theater. I think, though, that the MT-Concentrate (not MT cocktail juice) is making me go a little crazy. I don't know. You know what, just ignore me. Kthxbai.

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