It doesn't quite translate well, but screw google translate, I typed it myself and it totally makes sense.
P.S. I found this on stumble and it is pretty much me, perfectly.
"I am in a constant battle with my mind. i go from thinking that i am special for being "intelligent" to realizing that being aware of my being special is, in fact a sign that i am just seeking attention and simply something i like thinking about myself. then i realize that being aware of that fact counter-acts itself, and i am stuck in an endless paradox of myself. i have not yet learned how to stop and just say 'it doesn't matter' "